Starting Over

I hope you mean it when you say it.
i want to believe the words that you say. they are perfect. maybe too perfect.
everything we had is no longer.
we have to start over.
its the only place that makes any sense.
are you saying this to her too?
what to you say to her?
what do you want?
is this what you want?
am I what you want?
this doesnt have to be difficult, but sometimes it seems like you are making it that way.

Starting Over

i want your trust so you can have mine. i want honesty. i want truth. even if it hurts.
i hope i am not a pawn in your game. i dont want that. i never wanted that.
i never wanted this.
but when life hands you lemons you make lemonade.
you know how i feel, you always have. i just wish i knew your heart. i thought i did.

your voice excites me. this will be a challenge. it is already for me. i want to jump into it. but we cant. it wont work that way.

i hope you are serious. more serious than a heart attack.

you consume me.

confuse me.

excite me.

i dont know what to do. i dont want to set myself up for more heartache. but i im afraid if i dont take this risk i will miss out on something so much bigger than i thought. i am torn.

everyone has their opionions and ideas about what should happen. how to they know what is right for us? we know what is right for us. we have from the beginning.

i am strong. patient. compassionate. we are strong.i want the best for both of us.

we can do this. our love is strong. committ and go. let go and hold on because we're in for one heck of a ride.

this will be good. this will be great. this will be big.

i am hopeful.

which may mean im stupid.

but i am not stupid because i love.

i know you are sorry. i forgave you along time ago. so.

lets start over.