i am miserable. i am so incredibly miserable. i dont like grand view that is true but that is not the only thing that is making me so miserable. i just let people get to me. i let people make me feel stupid and insecure about myself. i used to be so confident in myself and my abilities but now my confidence is lacking. i dont know how i let this happen. i think i get easily intimidated with people who appear to know more than i do. but now i am starting to get the feeling that they dont really know more than i do. they just are really good at faking it.
i am just so sad...ALL OF THE TIME. it is a constant emotion. i have never felt this way ever in my life. it is confusing because there is no reason for me to be so upset.so i have no idea what to do about that either.
i have no idea what to do with my life. i dont know what to study or even where to go to school at. i have idea what to major in, i just dont have any outstanding abilites that stick out. i am not good at math, science, english...you name it.
i do have a passion for spanish and for the culture. i have a passion for god, and for people. i want to discover my purpose. there is more to life then this. i just know it.
i know that whatever is tossed my way i will pray about and i will be moved to do what is right for me. i have hope for the future.