Isaac
because i long to be a true and pure lover of the lord and because i love joe. i will lay this isaac down. i have to. it is killing me to have a hold of it. i just cant seem to completely let it go. i am desperately hanging on to what i can in fear. fear of the unknown. but whatever it is it will be beautiful.
the lord knows the desires of my heart. if i delight in him he will give me the desires of my heart. if i lay this isaac down the lord will bless me. he will bless that i hear him telling me to give up what is most important to me.
the lord has really blessed me with amazing friends who are so good to me. who are there to let me cry to them about the same things over and over. they give me hope and they remind me that i am loved. they pray for me and find the words to say when no one else does. he is the giver of all things that are good.
the lord promises that he heals the brokenhearted. he never promised it would be instantly.
i feel that the lord is calling me in this time to totally submit to him. to boldly go where deanne johnson has never gone before. to be so close and intimate with the lord that nothing can seperate us.
i feel god calling me to him. i feel the lord telling me to trust him. i dont want to be like jonah and hear god but run in the opposite direction. i doubt a whales belly is a comfortable place to be.
the love that the lord gives to me will never end. it lifts me up. the excitment and newness of the relationship never wears out. it is renewed everyday.
it hurts when the person you love the most and trust the most turns his back on you. abandons you for something/someone else. i feel betrayed, lied to, and most of all heartbroken. jesus knows how i feel. his best friend peter denyed 3 times. but jesus forgave him and then went on to make him the rock of the church. the lord knows how i feel even though i feel like no one else does.
it is time. because i love him so much. that i will make this sacrifice. i pray for him all the time. i pray for this. i pray for us.
things are hard and confusing but i will try to rest in the peace that only the Father can give. that is where true happiness is found.
the lord knows the desires of my heart. if i delight in him he will give me the desires of my heart. if i lay this isaac down the lord will bless me. he will bless that i hear him telling me to give up what is most important to me.
the lord has really blessed me with amazing friends who are so good to me. who are there to let me cry to them about the same things over and over. they give me hope and they remind me that i am loved. they pray for me and find the words to say when no one else does. he is the giver of all things that are good.
the lord promises that he heals the brokenhearted. he never promised it would be instantly.
i feel that the lord is calling me in this time to totally submit to him. to boldly go where deanne johnson has never gone before. to be so close and intimate with the lord that nothing can seperate us.
i feel god calling me to him. i feel the lord telling me to trust him. i dont want to be like jonah and hear god but run in the opposite direction. i doubt a whales belly is a comfortable place to be.
the love that the lord gives to me will never end. it lifts me up. the excitment and newness of the relationship never wears out. it is renewed everyday.
it hurts when the person you love the most and trust the most turns his back on you. abandons you for something/someone else. i feel betrayed, lied to, and most of all heartbroken. jesus knows how i feel. his best friend peter denyed 3 times. but jesus forgave him and then went on to make him the rock of the church. the lord knows how i feel even though i feel like no one else does.
it is time. because i love him so much. that i will make this sacrifice. i pray for him all the time. i pray for this. i pray for us.
things are hard and confusing but i will try to rest in the peace that only the Father can give. that is where true happiness is found.
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