Twinship

Having a twin is an amazing blessing and as I have grown up a little I have became more aware of how amazing it is to have a twin, especially a twin like mine.

People often ask "how do you like being a twin", which when come to think of it is a crazy question. I know nothing else. I love being a twin because it is what I know. I read a book recently about twins, it was called "One and the Same" it discussed twins relationships or "twinships" as they are called in the book and how everyone tries to be an individual. As I was reading this book I felt as if someone had written my life into a book. I found it somewhat comforting and erie that someone else knows what it is like to have a twinship like I have.

I love Dana for so many reason but having a twin also has it's downfalls. It is very difficult for me to make friends outside of my twinship. I am constantly comparing my twinship with Dana to other friendships in my life. I have rarely ever had to experience anything on my own. There have been a few things that I have experienced solo such as being married, but that list is very small.

Earlier this year I was experiencing panic attacks for the first time in my life. I couldn't put my finger on what was making these panic attacks happen when finally it dawned on me. Separation Anxiety. I have never lived this far away from my twin for this long. Dana did spend a semester in Wales, but we actually talked more while she was abroad then probably any other time. Our twinship seemed closer than ever and we were miles apart.

I know that I am so blessed to know that I have someone who will love me no matter what. No matter what I do or where I go or what decisions I make along the way. I know that she will always be there, to hold my hand, to cry with me and to laugh with me, and to just let me be me. No questions asked, nothing in return. That is the beauty of our twinship.