yuck.

today i have a bad case of the yuckies.

i just feel totally off.

not so much in a physical sense but more of an emotional one.

aren't emotions just funny?

at church on sunday rev. robin was talking about the story of hannah and how

she was talking to god in the temple, people thought she was drunk.

but isnt that the truth anytime a woman gets emotional people always want to blame in on something.

she's drunk

she's pregnant

she's on her period

she's a crazy person

you know where im going with this...

what is so wrong about just being emotional.

my husband and his family have an interesting dynamic compared to my family. they are so nice and so polite and well mannered and everyone just kind of does there own thing.

my family is loud and a little rough around the edges. we talk about everything and we share emotions and sometimes we even SHOW emotion towards one another, that could be anything from a hug or kiss to a few choice words and some tears.

i love my crazy family for being who they are. i love them because they love me. no matter what. no matter what sort of emotional meltdown i happen to be having this week, they look at me with love.

so i will sit here today watching trashy tv hanging out with my bestie macy and cry if i feel like it. and that is ok.

let me tell you it is a great feeling.

Mrs. Vaughan

Joe and I got married September 5, 2009. it was perfect. the whole day was perfect.

i feel so blessed to be married to such a wonderful man.

the ceremony was so great.

it was just plain amazing.

so now joe and i are living in minneapolis, which i will tell you, hasnt been an easy transition for me.

i guess i was just used to my small town iowa lifestyle and it will just take a little getting used to. i know that this is my home and everyday it feels a little bit more like it.

i am working on finishing my degree, as of now i just have to finish this microeconomics class and then. done and done. next on the agenda, a job.

i am terrified to get a job. because i have no idea what i want to do.

i just pray that the lord puts some sort of direction in my heart.

also the more people bug me about getting a job, the more i dont care about finding one.

how childish?!

i think it is just because i dont have any sort of direction.

minnesota is lonely. i spend most days with the dog. i love mr. macy, but sometimes his company just isnt the same as an actual human being. joe is always busy. every night he has this band to practice with or this show to watch. i just need to get out of the apartment and meet people. although it would be sweet to be like cinderella and start talking to the mice that live in our apartment.

anyway this is just the start of new stuff and it is great.

i am thankful for all the things the lord has blessed me with.

everything is changing but god's love is constant and abundant.