so i know i sound like a broken reacord but i am thinking about transferring.....AGAIN. i am just not happy here at grand view and no matter how muchi want to be, and how much i try i just dont like it. its not fair to me, and especially to joe that i am bummed out all the time. i LOVE being with joe EVERYDAY! but i hate that i am so sad when i am with him, because he makes me so incredbily happy. i am just so in love.
but the next question is where to transfer. i have been doing a lot of thinking about that. i think i really need to go some where and discover who i really am without joe and without dana. i just need to be me. so i have applied at Luther and i will be applying to other schools soon. i just dont have time right now because my life is sooooo crazy! but if i go to luther i will be close to home and i just really like decorah, but we will just have to see maybe i will do to central again or maybe i will go to minneapolis, who knows? i pray about it all the time. i just want to be happy.

Somebody please save me! im growimg up so fast. but its really a blast. its true its crazy how fast life just flies by, and yet it is so much fun. i miss the freedom of childhood, not having to worry about money, papers, loans, appearance. but growing up has its pluses too. i am learning so much about myself the more i grow up and i am learning how much i dont want to grow up. i just wish things could be easy but there is no turning back now. i dont know if i am very good at being a grown up. but only time will tell. i pray for direction in my life, and clarity for all my decisions and peace after i make them. god is good, all the time. alleluia!