restless

this whole week i have been feeling very restless.

unable to concentrate and unable to sleep.

i think something is going on. changes in my mind and spirit.

i am just so scared for the future. i dont know what i am called to do with my life and i feel like the time is rapidly approaching to figure it out. everyone tells me you have your whole life to figure it out. my mom is currently going to school to be a nurse after 25 years of cutting hair. 

money is always a stress in my life. i dont have any. i wish i did. i could if i wanted to. i could go back to working full time and going to school full time. then i would be a train wreck like i was when i was doing both of those things. 

i dont know how to shake this restless feeling. maybe i need to shake up my life a bit. i dont know. i just wish i had it all figured out. but i wont. 

i just need to quite worrying. its like sitting in a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but gets you nowhere. i just need to pray about it instead. my mom always tells me with should lift our hands in praise at least 10 times a day. and to be thankful for all the little things the Lord does for us. I think that is a good place to start.