Joy

im so exhausted from living in such an individualist society.

im tired of no one caring about anyone but themselves.

you can see it everywhere. you can feel it. you can even hear it in peoples conversations. all we care about is ourselves and what we can do to be better than everyone else. but what if my desire is not to be better than anyone, just be the best me? i feel like that is reason i am overlooked and not taken seriously.

when good things happen to people. we dont tell them how excited we are for them. we get upset because they got what we want. we experience jealousy, not joy.

i understand that with my peers (and with everyone in general) that times are tough. and competition is going to happen especially among the job market. i dont get jealous when i hear that someone gets a job or a great internship, im happy for them, and it gives me hope that i have a change too!

im trying to be more interested in people, in not a superficial kind of way, but in a true, genuine kind of way. Jesus told us to love the Lord our God with all of our heart, soul, mind and strength and to love our neighbors as ourselves. So all the time i spend on myself i hope to put the same amount of time in thinking and praying for others.

My mom always tells me that the Lord knows the desires of our heart. and i know he does. He wants to give us those desires and he will but when he sees fit. so for now im going to sit back and wait and see what happens. whatever happens, i know it going to be good!